11th
Definitely Flawed—-but it’s really fine
I have learned that as a person, I am flawed.
I have idiosyncratic tendencies, I am weird, I can be awkward, I make awful awful attempts at humor that usually result in people laughing at my idiocy….
—-but, I think I’m cool with it.
There isn’t one among us who isn’t somehow flawed and although we may want to change things about ourselves, we really should learn to own what we do have. I know that for the most part, I am stable and completely in charge of my own destiny as I plunge forward through college, relationships, career, etc…
I’ve definitely been down and out. I definitely am vulnerable. I definitely question this world, and myself, and my actions. I definitely overanalyze everything around me.
But who’s to say that any of this is bad??
The only real trouble comes when I let myself doubt that I am okay based on what others think. And I don’t really know if I am me in my own right, or if I am me because of how everybody else sees me. But for every person that causes me to doubt myself, there is one who completely understands me.
The minute I can let go and realize that not everybody is going to like me, understand me, see my reasoning as just, or recognize the complexities of human nature, I can release myself, live and let live.
This is not to say that I won’t continue to question my sanity and make myself vulnerable, and, perhaps, even let it eat away at me—-these elements are all part of who I am.
But through all of this, I will know that it’s all perfectly valid. I will question, I will contradict, I will have realizations, epiphanies, changes of heart, and I will live my life knowing full well that I have power over my destiny. I do these things to myself. I have choice and responsibility.
